That lovely Stop Sign

That lovely Stop Sign
This sign is the most loved/hated thing here!

I did it! I am committed! WE are doing it!

I have taken the "before" pictures, I have announced my journey to my community. I have asked for their help in holding me accountable - I am going to lose this weight, gain health and hopefully inspire others along the way to do the same. Together we will become stronger individuals and become a stronger, healthier community!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

It's been a while....

Hmmm, I guess it's been since April that I last decided to take stock of my life by blogging.  That's really what this whole process is good for, amazing what your brain let's go of when you just sit down to write.  It's more than writing (yes I do realize that it is typing, not actually writing)  it is sort of like gardening the brain, pulling up the weeds, cleaning out the trash and thining the plants and making sure that only the important stuff is growing in there!  I like it, gardening my brain....weeding the brain....hmmmm, I'll have to think about that a little more. 

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Days 33,34,35,36,37,38,39 Catching you up

So, I did not fall off the face of the Earth - I just ran out of things to say!  On Friday of last week, I did complete the ride I promised I would on Thursday, only I took a wrong turn and instead of a 10 mile bike ride - I took a 20 mile bike ride!  I thought I was going to puke by the time I got back here - it was HARD!!!!

Saturday was nice, after morning workouts I worked a little and laid in the sun a little in the afternoon.  Saturday night was graduation, sad to see friends leave - but we all must go back to the real world!  Sunday I went on a 4hr bike adventure.  I biked about 14 miles, but I stopped in Coyote Gulch and did a little shopping and had a COFFEE!!!  Oh how I miss the occasional coffee (Yes, if you didn't know already - this place is caffeine free!)  Then Sunday night we welcomed the newbies!

Oh, I almost forgot - I weighed in Sunday morning at 230 lbs.  That is exactly 25 lbs less than I checked in at!  We will see what this weeks weigh in says.....

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday all flew by!  It is incredible how fast this last week is going.  Today is Thursday - that dreaded day of Treading and Ball Works!  Packed up a few boxes today and started shipping stuff home.

Have been to the triathlon course a few times, scared as all get out!!  Saturday will be the culmination of my journey here!  I still can't believe I am going to do this....... Gotta run, class starts in 8 minutes!  TTFN

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Day 32, REALLY missing my kids!!

Today was rough on the emotional side of things.  I am really feeling the pull of home.  My daughter is sick and my son is really missing me - it is tough to be away from them.  I knew it would be rough, but it is getting harder as the days go by.  One more week to go....

On the exercise front, did less today than yesterday.  Biked more, but did not swim.  Took another Pilates class, those are nice and don't hurt my feet!  I have a Pilates machine at home and never use it, mostly because I didn't know how or what to do with it.  I am learning and I really like it; 2 more classes next week and I should be good to go at home on my machine! My abs are really feeling it too!!

Took the "menu planning" class again - learned more.  I know I haven't written much about the education series, but they really are 50% of what you get out of this place.  I will be writing more about them later as I begin to put them into practice.

I am planning to ride the full 10 miles on the road tomorrow.  When I have ridden the full 10 miles previously, it has been in the gym.  The road is a lot different and a little scary at times.  I mapped out a safe route through town, most of it has bike lanes and traffic only reaches a max of 35.  I'll let you know how it goes!  Also plan to swim and practice the transitions again in the afternoon.  Gotta figure out what I am going to wear.  Probably will be buying a new bathing suit tomorrow, current one is not staying up too well.  Of course, I am not complaining about that!

That's about it.   TTFN

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Day 31, Rebounded today

The mind games are over.  Today was a better day!  Woke up with a smile on my face.  Feet didn't hurt too bad today.  Made the most of what God gave me today!

Did stretch class, then swam the 1/2 mile, then practiced the "transition to the bike", biked 6 miles, took a Pilates class, then took Mountain and then 2 pool classes and after that I swam 1/4 mile!  So, no slacking today!

I am tired now and getting ready for bed.  That's about it for now.  TTFN

Day 30, 5th Tuesday - bummer

Tuesday was a bummer!  Took pain meds, slept and stayed off my feet most of the day.  Did a little bike ride in the morning and that was about it.  Still fighting the mind games.  That was Tuesday!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Day 29, 5th Monday and off to the Dr.

Today I went to see a Dr. in the "Foot and Ankle" group. He was really nice and thorough, but gave me some terrible news. After x-rays and ultrasounds, the feet are worse than I had dreamed. I went in there thinking I was getting cortisone shots in each and that I would feel fine - didn't happen. No shots, he said they were too far gone for that and that the shots had a better chance of causing more damage than helping - not what I wanted to hear! By the way, ultrasound pictures of tears in your tendons and bone spurs are not near as much fun to show around as pictures of babies in your tummy!!!!!

So, I have really had to re-group - AGAIN!! I am so sick of the word "modification" that I get tears in my eyes every time I say it. I had such big plans for the next two weeks, I had a different agenda, I thought things would go my way and well, I have been whining about it all day (and occasionally crying about it too). I am not getting my way and I am not happy.......

Lots of support coming my way, but I am still playing this mental game. In all reality, I joked about coming to rehab, but this is rehab for food addicts! So everything is a mental game when you are an addict of any kind. The mental Olympics are continuing. Along with my food addiction, there is a self-destructive or self-defeating streak as well - now to balance that and how it may be playing into my absolute determination to compete in the triathlon. I feel that I cannot quit - I MUST finish the triathlon. I have quit every other time I was going to do one - I am going to do it, come what may - I may not be able to walk when I get home, but I have to do this! So I bounced that decision around in my head all day - do I want to quit as part of the self-defeating behavior or do I want to compete and tear up my feet as part of the self-destructive behavior???? See what I mean, mental Olympics all day!

On a positive note, there is lots of support and lots of opportunity to keep going and keep pushing, with that ugly word - MODIFICATION!!! The trainers are great and they will get my body through this and I will be ready for the race, I really don't have any doubt - I am just "in a mood" over it all. I will continue with the food part, which is eating what they serve here and remembering that what I put in my mouth is 70-80% of my personal battle.

Well, going to take some meds and go to bed. Tomorrow is another day and I will do my best to get out of it all of the possibilities is holds for me!  TTFN

Monday, March 22, 2010

Day 28, Looking forward to the Triathlon

Well, it's Sunday and that means looking forward to what I will get out of the week ahead.  Had the day to myself in Vegas, walked around and left all the money Vegas had given to me.  I managed to pay for my entire weekend out of their money before I gave it back, so no big deal - it was lots of fun.

I did spend my "alone time" mentally preparing for the next 2 weeks.  Got a ride back with another guest - THANKS Jim for the ride!  Jim is the guest that talked me into the triathlon.  On the ride back, he drove me into St. George and showed me the course.  There are some scary hills on the bike course!

That catches up my blog posts (just for you P)!  I need to finish up my other stuff and get in bed.  Morning comes quick!  For those wondering about weight loss - I did not weigh in this weekend.  I did weigh in before I left and on Friday and I had lost another 4 lbs, but that was in the middle of the day and right after lunch and lots of water from classes.  I am not going to weigh in again until I leave.  I know it was more than the 4 lbs, but I was a little bummed.  Hopefully the next 2 weeks will produce the results I am looking for.....but trying not to get too wrapped up in the numbers.  TTFN